November 30, 2007

Rubik's Cubes

Gah, so I'm sitting in Cisco, trying to figure out a Rubik's cube. haha. I've sort of given up for the moment though because my cube is obnoxiously hard to turn. There's a guy in my class that can do the cube in about 4 minutes average. He's just memorised moves though. I want to read up on the mathematics of it. I find the cube very interesting. Any mathematical or geometric challenge is a source of entertainment for me. Yea, I'm a nerd. XD

Any of you ever finished a Rubik's cube? Any of you interested in mathematics?

I love math. I don't like math class but I love math in general. I love how everything fits together. I actually find math very... spiritual. Like, when I think of how it all fits together so perfectly, I'm amazed and I just think of how God is so amazing and this world is so amazing and interesting. It just blows my mind. It makes me feel very happy and giddy. Most people I know think I'm weird for this.

November 29, 2007

Yesterday I went to my school councilor to talk to them about how people have been harassing me, especially whenever I use the bathrooms. I explained how I had been hesitant to report it because I didn't want the office calling my parents and I explained how my parents would yell at me and tell me I "had it coming". They appologized for calling my parents and told me it wouldn't happen again. They are also letting me use the bathroom in the nurse's office now so I don't have to put up with stupid people saying "you're in the wrong bathroom!"

November 26, 2007

So the other day, I'm at school, I walk out of the bathroom and a guy jumps out from behind the door. He grabs my shoulders and pushes me into one of his friends. There are three guys and three girls. They circled around me and started pushing me around calling me a "faggot", "freak", and "pervert". I should report this right? These people should not get away with this. The problem is, last time I reported being harassed, the school called my parents even though they promised not to. If my parents find out, I will be yelled at, grounded, lectured, etc. My parents have still not shut up about the last time I reported it. They said it was my fault. I "had it coming" because I supposedly flaunt my sexuality at school.

Isn't there some confidentiality thing that school councilors have to abide by? Does anyone know where I could look up laws about this? I'm searching for stuff but not finding much.

November 20, 2007

Today is the Trangender Day of Rememberance. I can't even view that site though because my school has it blocked for being in the category "gay or lesbian or bisexual interest" -__-. People in my school's GSA and some not in the GSA are wearing the white armbands that glsen sent me. We aren't doing anything after school today but we are tomorrow. We can't meet on Tuesdays so we decided to just do it on Wednesday, our regular meeting day. We wanted to watch Boys Don't Cry, but it's rated R so the school won't let us. Oh well. We are going to have a discussion about what gender is, what transgender means, what genderqueer and androgyne mean, etc.

November 19, 2007

New Mel Word Banner

Do you like my new banner for the blog? hehe I tried to make it look kinda like the L word banners except blue. This blog doesn't really have anything to do with the L word except the name. I chose the name The Mel Word because my friend said I have so my queer drama in my life that I could have my own tv show and call it "The Mel Word". I'm not going to go on and on in this blog about stupid drama though. I just like the name, so deal with it. :P

November 18, 2007

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November 16, 2007

Alright, time for me to get on the soapbox again.

I am part of the LGBT community. We are often discriminated against. I've heard about how we are not really discriminated against and we get special treatment and all of that. Maybe some LGBT people get special treatment. In my personal experience though, I have not gotten special treatment and neither has anyone I know. I have personally been harassed and discriminated against.

I'm told I can not use that as an example though because it is something I choose. I do not choose it though. It is the way I am. I could live my life as a completely "normal" heterosexual but it would be a lie. I have tried that. It was extremely stressful. Why should I have to pretend to be someone I am not?

By the way, I am not gay. I am straight (mostly). I am transgender though. I am physically female. I am a male though. I am not a tomboy. I am a guy. I have always felt like a guy. I did not know what transgender was when I was younger but I did feel like a guy. When I was in preschool and kindergarten I thought I was a boy. I even used the boys bathroom. I didn't understand why I got in trouble for that.

If I live my life as a girl, even as a tomboy/masculine female I am still treated as a girl most of the time. I am not a girl though. I am a guy.

November 15, 2007

Debates in Cisco

I'm in Cisco class. We've been talking about religion and politics for the past hour though. I'm all for talking about religion and politics but these guys won't let me get a word in. We're talking about terrorism, and Israel and all of that good stuff. I want to bang my head against the desk right now. Apparently, I have had it very easy because I was born in America and my parents were born in America. Okay, true, I do not have to worry about my family over seas. Okay, sure, fine. Do I have it easy? That's debatable.

I'm told that I do not care about people dying over seas. Maybe I am not closely related to the Arabic and Israeli people that are over there dying. I still care though. When I hear about the fighting I feel horrible. I have cried myself to sleep about all of those people dying. All of that hate. No, I do not have to worry about people invading my house or bombing my house or anything. My heart goes out to the people that do though. Am I a bad person because I am not related to those people? I empathize with them greatly.

November 13, 2007

Attack of the Weezing

Gah, so I am sick. A couple weeks ago I had a sinus infection. I went to the doctor and he put me on anti-biotics. I finished off my anti-biotics and was feeling better but now I am sick again. It's not my sinuses this time though. I have a cough and I'm weezing. I have pretty much no energy. Arg. I'm sorry that I keep going on and on about my health.

In other news, we're studying Ethernet in my Cisco class. I love this class but I'm currently pretty bored. I want to do some labs or something. I wish we could do some hands on stuff. Right now we're just studying for our test. I'm feeling a bit too ADD for this right now. haha

I have already studdied. I tried to go on Wikipedia and sign in. I can't sign in though. My IP address is blocked, probably because I'm on a school computer.